Fit in his shoes.

Terkadang, untuk beberapa hal,gue adalah orang yang sangat sangat gak berpikir panjang. Melakukan segala hal atas dasar apa yang gue pengenin sekarang,dan later on, menyesali hal bodoh itu.

Dan jeleknya adalah,i tend to treat some problem like it's just.. A problem. No big deal.
Bahasa perancisnya, menggampangkan masalah.
But then i found out, there are some things that definitely not just "a problem" when it comes to trust. What we see is not what they see. And just being me,i tried to find myself a reason to justify the lie i did.

but one thing..
Things wont be the same again. It's like breaking the bubble me,and him,used to live in. Me,moi,im the one who pinch the bubble for the sake of justification. No matter what the reason is, lie remains a lie. Small or big, matters or not,lie wont give you any good.

And i tried to fit in his shoes, what if it is me being the one get fooled?
Trust is something merely sacred,thing that once broken, wont be the same again.
Apapun itu. Dibohongin rasanya pasti ga enak banget.

And this stupid me is still banging her head all over the wall. The bubbles are disappeared alredy, and...
I dont know where it leads to.
Right now? It feels like hell..

Because i miss him but i dont have the gut to say it,like i dont even have the right to text or give him a call.
Im no longer inside the bubble.